Prompt: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

See?  Another one with the same answer!  Everyone, tune in for the next post, where I tell you that I quit my job.  Oh, did I tell you I quit my job?  Yeah. that happened.

Though really it isn't my job I let go of.  It's my distrust.  My distrust of myself, and distrust of the universe, and distrust of fate.  I had to let go of  the belief that I'd be doomed, DOOMED!  if I went out on my own two feet.  That I would be a big whopping failure.  I don't know why I think that.  I don't think I'd be a failure in any job I had, quite the opposite.  I'm quite confident that whatever job I'm hired to do I will make the most of it and push it beyond that.

So, why would working for myself be any different?

Is it because I'm willing to work wonderfully within a box I'm given, but when you take away the boundaries, my energy will just run all over the place, like a big oozing monster?

Or is it because I don't trust myself to do what is right for myself?  I trust myself to take care of other people, and put others first.  But when I have to put myself first, I'm going to let myself down?

Yet, I don't think I have a problem putting myself first in many ways.  As many of the people who know me well can attest.  Ha ha. Hm.

I guess I feel that what I have to offer is somehow less valuable.  Or less desirable.  Or just less.

So, that, THAT is what I'm letting go of this year.  And I'm glad to be done with it.

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